that girl

So I got a haircut and I never felt so refreshed. Growing my hair long seems very goal orientated to me. I wanted to have long hair because I want to be "feminine" "girly" basically mold myself to the stereotypical female. Why? I thought this way I would be more accepted. But as time pass by I just want to be myself: strong, independent, and confident. More importantly I want to be me.

Cutting my hair is the first step to be whoever, whatever I want to be. If I want something I make it happen.

There is an art in making "you" you. For example you wear things that matches your personality. Be yourself. Seriously why do people say "fake it til you make it" will that make you happy?

brief interruption. What are you doing now? 
Listening to ted talks. It is simply mind blowing. These people insights and thoughts makes my heart flutters with joy and my stomach's butterflies just want to break free.

What happen yesterday?
yesterday I met amazing people.
1. the boy who sat next to me and we studied together
2. the two girls in the left front of me who are so motivating and kind
3. the girl to my right front who was hard working and scared like me
4. the girl in front of me who gave me hope for my future
5. the man who replace person number 3 whose knowledge is so vast

What unites us all? We are all intelligent, hardworking individuals.

What happened yesterday?
I met a boy who I have been thinking of for a very long time. I am not sure how about I feel about it (seeing him). Are you thinking of what I am thinking? I should take the encounter as a project of my subconsciousness.

I swear I see you in a million little faces.

to be continued. because I am studying. because that is what people like me do.