No news is good news, here are some news :(

How anxiety and depression sucks
- I sometimes get very anxious
- I sometimes cry randomly
- I sometimes force myself out of bed to go to work because I need money
- I am not allowed to cry or be unhappy at work
- This week I got very depressed
- I decided to message my Manager that I am unable to work
- On thursday I forced myself to work because I need money
- It was the day I did not know I got fired

How I found out I lost my job
- Manager seen an email to me and cc to 4 different people
- Manager mistyped my email address
- I never received the email
- Everyone knows I got fired except for me
- I went to work happy
- I got yelled out by the manager for not replying to emails
- office says manager should have talked to me before processing the termination paper work
- When I got back to the lab, I couldnt breathe and my whole body feels numb
- the manner in which I found out and the way I was treated has affected emotionally and mentally
- so i decided to not go there anymore and just quit early.

so sad you know.

how i have been living?
selling some of my thing